1 is the loneliest number.....

You know, they always say nice guys finish last; that no matter how good u treat someone, the jerks are the ones who end up on top. I don't buy that theory, or at least i dilute myself into thinking I don't belive it. But the truth is that it IS the truth. Why though? Why is it the guys who are respectful, nice, complementary, caring, and all that other blah blah blah that I've said so many times, get ignored, but the jerks who don't have an ounce of compassion in their bodies get whatever girl happens to sit next to them in class? I don't understand it, yet at the same time I do. I can see how jerks can be attractive; the whole "im too good for you" attitude combined with "im impossible to get" mentality gets those guys to the top. But that doesn't sit well with me. Unfortunately, though, there isn't much I can do to change that personna that people have of each other, so I can only look towards what I CAN affect, and that's me. Am I not outgoing enough? Do I give off a bad vibe? I dunno for sure, but what I do know is that it's starting to affect me really deeply now. I am 20 years old, and yet other than a few flings here and there, haven't had a serious relationship basically ever. People always tell me, especially girls, that "ohh Brad you're a really great guy, you'll find someone soon". Well here I am, almost legally allowed to drink, a year away from graduating college, and still nothin. Is this a plea for help? Not so much as it is a cry for understanding. I've lost faith really; you start believing that the right match just isn't there. Let's face it, nobody wants to be that guy on match.com looking for love. I've always told myself it will come. My patience has worn thin however and it's starting to affect other parts of my life. I've become distant from family, friends, and even myself. I have little to zero motivation to do any schoolwork. For example, I have two midterms tomorrow. Haven't started studying for either of them yet. Instead, right now, I'm waiting for a movie to finish buffering online so I can waste away another few hours without thinking about it. I'm afraid I will start to spiral out of control soon if I don't at least get some response. I have tried, believe me. But maybe I'm just not open enough. I dunno. We've all been in the situation where we find a really nice girl who reciprocates those nice feelings back, only to find out later she is in a relationship. We've all been there. It just seems like every one for me though is like that. Am I too picky? Maybe. But at this point I've lowered myself within a range of decency to accommadate a broad spectrum of girls. Still, nothin. So, once again, is this a plea for help? No, but it is a cry for guidance, a direction, something positive I can build off of to improve not only my personal relationship life, but all other areas as well. I will try to be more open and outgoing, even though I feel I already am. Hopefully soon, my luck will change. Then again, I've been saying that for a long time now.....